Letter to a Friend

What I want to say to you is that God didn’t let you down. God will never let you down. It’s the church that let you down.  They gave you the wrong idea about God and made you dependant on their teachings.  THEY, not God had you on your knees praying praying praying  and begging God to hear you...you don’t treat your children that way.  Are you better than God?  Just think about it.   Is God stupid enough or mean enough or forgetful enough that you have to beg and beg to try to influence him to bend an ear your way and listen to your wisdom.   That is how the church controls you.  They keep you from thinking for yourself.  They keep the truth from you to stay in control.  They brainwashed you and con- trolled you..and now you’re left holding the bag!

Do you know where to find God?  God is nearer to you than your fingers and toes and closer than your breathing.  Listen to your Heart.  That’s where you find God!  I kid you not.  I’ve spent 35 years doing that and I couldn’t be happier than I am today even with the failed marriage, just like you...the leg and surgeries...actually they were gifts that helped me get where I am now...completely happy!  So I know for sure that God knew better than I did what was good for me.  I can’t tell you how happy I am.  I can just be me with no apologies! That’s why I told Steve to cut the cake in four!!!  I was having so much fun with all you guys.   It’s silly...it’s fun...and it doesn’t hurt anybody.  And you were all such pleasant company.

You think the world isn’t perfect...no it certainly isn’t...if it were I wouldn’t have searched  for the Real Truth for myself...I would have been the puppet on the string always feeling guilty and scared and unsure of myself and full of dreams that could never come true - just how you said your rosary over and over and over again and thinking that would influence an angry God to save you from hell and keep your kids on the straight and narrow.  The worst you might get in this world is a few minutes in the naughty corner!!! ha ha! Do you think yourself higher than God, that God is meaner than you or me?

Do you think that God is just moody or bad tempered?  What do you suppose he’s so angry about anyhow?  And what about the b.s. about being damned for eating an apple they were asked not to eat?   The “original sin” is believing all this crap that you listened to so devotedly and  now you feel like you’ve been stabbed in the back and rightly so.  Your soul is created in the image and likeness of God.  If the church was honest they would tell you that
the place to find the truth is in your very own Heart.  The place to find peace and wisdom and courage and strength and love and joy is in your very own Heart. 

 You know what God is?   God is not a superman up in the sky or a Santa Claus that rewards you if you’re good and if you’re bad “to hell with you!”  God is good.   God is not even a  person.  God is LOVE!  That’s what God is.  And being God’s Child means you are love too.  You have a divine DNA imprinted in your heart/soul sure as you have a human DNA.  Honest to God you do.  And if you quit battling with the world and just get quiet and listen gently with your heart, you will KNOW it’s true!  YOU will KNOW the truth for yourself and the truth will set you free.

You think you’re left with nothing for all your praying?  Look again!  God reads the intention in your heart and your heart was/IS pure.  There is LOVE in your heart...there is love in your family Jeanette.   You love your family so much and they love you!  Can you get a better gift than that?

It’s not a matter of location.  God is as much at the Timbucktwo Assisted Living as he is in the big city “avec les mechants!”   You CAN be happy!  You can feel good about yourself.  And when you pray they will be “Thank God” prayers IF you’re willing to do what it takes to reconnect with the treasures of your Heart that you’ve been cheated out of by the church. 

Try to feel the love and joy in your heart  Jeanette.  Relax...go for a walk and feel the breeze on your face and smile while you’re walking.  Look and don’t go home until you find something GOOD!!!  Something to smile about!

Remember that you are God’s Child and that God loves you.  That Child holds your hand on one side and God's in the other.  

 “'He will send his angels
 To watch over you and to guard you and,  'They will lift you up, so that 
You will not strike your foot
Against a stone. ”  
(Doesn’t sound like an angry God to me!)

God did it for me and one of the angels He sent me was your son.  Be very proud of him Jeanette.  He is so precious, so big-hearted, so kind and so generous.  Plus, he is fun to be with.  He knows how to crack a joke and he likes to laugh!  Now there is something you can be happy about.  Just add it to your list of the blessings in your life and love will grow until there is no room left in your heart for all those dark thoughts!

I wrote a little book some years back about an exercise I did with my grand kids.  I called it “The Little Love Light”.  I had forgotten about it but recently a lady in the US wrote to me and said that it was the key for her to feel that happy loving feeling that we all so wish for.  It does happen Jeanette...that is why I was laughing at your b-day party...you can feel carefree and happy and joyful in spite of all the misery in the world when you know the truth....anyhow,  back to the book.  It should have been a recording...a CD but I didn’t know how to get it on CD so I wrote the book.  I want to try to fix that because I think it might be useful for you and others who are in the same boat as you...having been conned by the churches.  But for the time being, the little booklet is available on the internet.  If you’re interested I’ll make sure you get one.

Don’t put it off  Jeanette!  I’m not kidding you!  You can get so that you don’t even care about that place you’re living in if you’re happy in your heart.  If you’re ok in your heart your world will be ok too.  I’m telling you the TRUTH!!!